17th March 2017
A new endeavour - as if my life didn't have enough going on... I thought I'd try and write a page a day about what I do etc...
I woke up and had a very peaceful meditation this morning, after listening to a Pema Chodron talk. Just very still posture, quiet mind. I wonder what difference a proper meditation teacher would make?
Went over to M & A's for A's birthday this morning. A little awkward, I felt riven with doubt as ever, but wanted to go, didn't want to be left out. So I went. Late, to show that I wasn't 100% keen on going. A cooked up a storm of breakfast. M burnt her hand on an overn dish whilst trying to protect Ma from getting too close to the cooker. I let A go to her first, but felt he took too long. I went into the kitchen and encouraged her to hold her hand under cold water for a longer period. But she didn't like the cold. B quiet, Be as she often is, a bit antsy. (or so it seemed to me)
Went off tutoring and that was a pure unalloyed pleasure! Asif keen, willing. Akis much better today. Tried harder, put some more into it all. Mum was very happy and grateful - why doesn't she offer the poor parched tutor a cup of something if she's so happy????
Drove home and worked in the garden for the afternoon - in the drizzle. Cleared most of the back and had a lovely idea for a mini patio to catch the summer sun. Will order sand this week and dig it out! Got to get cracking by 23rd April for the meeting here.
Meditation didn't happen - Julie not well... me a bit tired after Sturday's efforts which unfortunately will not get published here, as it happened the day before. I did think of going to see her, but I was tiiired so ended up sitting on sofa instead. I did go and feed the cat however, though he wasn't there. Spent the evening channel hopping to no purpose. Could have done this instead. I have this feeling I deserve a special treat after the hard work. But for all the pleasure it gives me I could much easier done something a bit more creative and rewarding. Now sitting in bed feeling slight indigestion from Nytol.
